It’s the morning after Christmas;
The angels have sung , the baby welcomed , we feasted , we napped …..in short – A day gone by in the the usual christmas style
Yet …mixed emotions collide inside my head as I look at my Christmas tree. A reminder of another year gone by ; the things I resolved to do …..and have still to do.
These weren’t difficult things nor would they be called time consuming. When i set them on my ‘to do’ list it seemed like there was enough time to get there; but just as i started thinking about what i need to begin- it seemed like they just ‘whooshed ‘ past me.
The whooshing startled , then baffled and finally i sat back in quiet resignation and watched it float past while i gave myself innumerable reasons why i couldn’t really get there.
They were always there at the back of my mind – standing tall, smiling gently as the ‘more urgent’ matters got priority. Each time they poked their head and tried to get an inch forward , more pressing matters pushed their way through and at this point I can sheepishly add that a lot I thought I would do remained only on paper.
But there is something else I did do –I began jotting down little significant moments during the year – times when I felt happy ,Meals I really enjoyed; Stuff I bought and felt thrilled about; Gifts I received; The times I felt good about what I did ; The people that added a little magic in my day. …..The moments that shine out the most during the course of the year.
Gazing at my Christmas tree , lights twinkling through its branches – I stop and reflect on the things and people that truly matter in my life , The things I missed out on . i was a little surprised at the things that didn’t make it to my list, Of course they were fun while they lasted but not enriching enough .
That’s it ….as the year waves goodbye, I feel blessed and grateful for the so called ‘charming gardeners’ of my soul. I will now lean forward and focus on things that do matter – frame goals that involve spending more time with people I love – people that bring out the best in me; Travel; Eat right; Accomplish those work goals.
Yeah ….am feeling quite awesome right now as I sit down to make this brand new list of things ide like like to spend my time doing in the coming year . Suddenly this sparkling tree seems to be smiling at me